she was an amazing woman. she was beautiful, in and out, kind, benevolent. she took me under her wing when life turned its back on me, when i was just an empty shell. she taught me again to trust, to smile, to love what i no longer knew how to love.
to love life. she was patient with me, even when i wanted to flee, not to be here anymore, when i was mean to her.
until her last day with me, she never stopped loving me, telling me to never to regret what i had gone through, to remember, to always thanking life for going through things. but it's one thing that i failed. because i regretted having given, having confided, having loved, having lost.
but now i remember and i don't want to regret or forget anything. neither evil nor good. neither the good people, or the bad ones. to have loved passionately, to have smiled too much, to have laughed. i want to live fully, even clumsily.
growing to be me, remembering what she always told me.
"smiles suhee, life adores you, my angel"
so, to this woman who loved me, who saved me.
i want to say, thank you for giving me life a second time.
i love you, ma.
rest in peace.
( 15.03.01 )